Monday, July 21, 2008

Down but not Out

Its easy to lose sight of the big picture when I'm confronted with the nitty gritty details over and over again. Each time I am faced with a statement or circumstance that threatens to call the truth a lie, its like the devil would like to rub my face in his ugly 'reality' to try and convince me that that is all there is and all there ever will be. Over and over again, I have to call it what it is and place my trust in God Almighty who sees past my moment, past my desires.
I have no where else to go. I know no other place that is strong or trustworthy enough to place my hope in. I resign myself to His will and His alone. The alternatives are not in any way appealing.
When I have been emptied of physical and emotional strength, it would be easy to give up. Last night, I saw myself, in a battle field, worn out from standing and fighting, even with the Lord beside me. I had grown so weary and had fallen to the ground, and I found myself pleading with the Lord, "Either fill me up again, or give me some more help. I am at the end of my physical strength. Or, go on ahead of me because I know that the battle is not mine and will not be won by my strength and presence alone. The battle is Yours and whether I am standing or not, You will have the victory. I have given all I have and I know that we are not defeated."
Even tho' I may be wrung out, I do not give up hope. The Lord God is far greater than I and He is able to do exceedingly beyond what I can ever dream He can do. All I can do, is do my part. I can trust in Him because He is good. I know that He has been and is and ever will be at work and His will will be done regardless of how adverse my physical circumstances look. I cannot, I dare not try to imagine what He will do. I cannot put a tag or a picture to His thoughts, for they are far beyond my ability to imagine.
I choose to fear Him. I place my hope and faith in Him and look continually for His face.
In my lowest point of strength, I still see Him. I still praise Him and I worship Him for that is when I see Him like no other.
"But we have this treasure in earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.
We are troubled on every side, yet not distressed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; Persecuted, but not forsaken; cast down, but not destroyed; " 2Corinthians 4:7-9

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